Day 2

Valentines........Withdrawal........& Remembrance.....
Today started off with a very excited 3 year old. Lillian was very excited to receive her Valentines gift from her Daddy & Mommy which included Cheetos (her favorite) and Peter Pan. Lillian was also responsible for bringing treats to preschool (rice crispy treats with pink sprinkles- per request and pink milk) and I was going to help out with the Valentines Day party too! The morning was a lot of fun and it was priceless to see the looks of excitement on the children's faces.

After the excitement calmed down I suddenly found myself getting sick. This is not the way I planed this Valentines day to be. As it turned out I continued to go down hill and was hit with a migraine that made me hide under the covers and from any light or noise. Thankfully Lillian was able to hang with my mom (Meme) and her cousins. I knew the caffeine withdrawals wouldn't be fun but I never imagined the length of this discomfort. The lack of movement from my part resulted in canceled dinner plans  and my poor husband getting McDonald's instead :(  Hopefully I'll make it up to him this weekend. I don't think he was too disappointed.......Valentines Day hasn't been big on our celebration list since we lost a baby that was due today four years ago.

I've been getting better about putting a smile on my face and attempting to enjoy the "day of love" and of course I also want Lillian to be able to enjoy it too! Even though it has been 4 years I still struggle with it. I want to know why it happened and what I did wrong. I know that one day I will get to meet and hold my angel but on days like today it's still hard. I fear that somehow I will forget....

Happy Valentines Day <3

40 Days

The Lenten Journey.......what will mine look like? What will I be giving up this lent season? How will I grow and what will I discover? As the season approached I began to think about the question that most of my family would be asking me which is "what are you going to give up for Lent?" Each year I think about what I should do and then if I could actually do it. My Aunt Pat decided to give up Facebook for Lent. Now that is commitment......I'm not sure I could do that one. After much debate I finally decided that I would give up one thing that I like to enjoy on a daily basis and in this case something that I liked to enjoy multiple times a day and honestly I am someone dependant on this pleasure. I also thought Lent is supposed to be about learning and growing too not just giving pleasures up. So I will be giving up pop including my all time favorite Mt. Dew in a can- ice cold! I also set a goal to do something that I've always wanted to do. I have secretly wanted to be a real writer. The problem is that I always get held up when it comes to the ideas actually getting on paper. So in my attempt to become a better writer I will be writing daily for the next 40 days during my Lenten journey. I hope that in the end I've lost a few pound from the lack of pop and that I've become more comfortable and gain some confidence in my writing.

One of my favorite things about fall is wearing sweatpants and drinking a hot mug of creamer with a little coffee :) This fall I have received a special gift......being able to see Lillian explore and fall in love with Fall too! She loves all the leaves on the ground and tries to collect as many as she can in her hands. Lillian likes to line the leaves up and feel their textures.  Our plans for tomorrow are to rake up some leaves and let her jump in them!  Tonight I am teacher her how to drink "coffee"- No, I am not actually giving my 2 year old coffee but she is having milk in a coffee mug while I have some coffee in my coffee mug. She was so excited to trade out her sippy cup for a coffee mug! There was only one small problem.....Lillian can easily put her sippy cup on top of the kitchen counters because they have lids and she has tippy toes!  Tonight she attempted to put her coffee mug on the counter and I turned around to see her poor milk straight down on her head and all over her face! She freaked out! Lillian did know if she should cry or scream- it was  ice cold milk. She decided to do both.....and I being the loving caring mom that I am......Laughed! I did also wipe her face and hair and comfort her- but it was pretty hilarious! Poor thing.  Another thing I like about fall is I feel the need to do "fall cleaning" so that's on the to-do list for this week as well :)

Sophie ( our 3 year old Husky) has also enjoyed all the leaves!

Happy Fall everyone!

Full plate!

Somehow summer is gone and fall is here. I'm not sure exactly how that happened. It seems like each summer goes by so quickly! This summer was no exception! Our summer included our wedding, steamboat days, fairs, mini vacations, the zoo and me being away from my family for a week to attend confirmation camp with my youth. Now that fall is here, school has started again for me. I am taking abnormal psych. & a writing class. If all goes well I will graduate in the spring. This time of year things get pretty busy in our house. Bryan started coaching youth soccer for the fall season. He has two teams both boy teams. Sophie (our dog) is also preparing for the cold season by shedding all of her summer coat- which is a big mess! Every year, spring and fall I think about just shaving her! At work I have started all my fall programing again and things are off to a really good start! With all that is going on I am often overwhelmed but trying to remember to enjoy each day, each moment, and every kiss from Bryan and our Monkey! Happy Fall everyone! And who knows maybe fall will bring more blog post :)

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Multitask

As I write this blog tonight I am also enjoying a classic movie with Lillian......Lady and the Tramp.  I remember watching this movie when I was a little girl with my sister Kathy. So far Lillian is also a fan....but probably because there are a lot of dogs in this movie and she really likes dogs! What classic childhood movies do you remember and want to share with your children?
I also find it interesting that I can't just sit and watch a movie....I am such a multitasker. I guess it's just the way I have function for so long it's the only way I know how to. Here are some examples of my inability to just relax....
I always work on the computer or do another task while watching a movie
When I do actually sit down to watch a TV show- I get up during almost every commercial to change the laundry or unload the dishwasher, etc.
I keep notes and post its everywhere because when I am doing something I usually think of a thousand other things I need to do too
Meditation is probably something I could never do!  When I get a massage I can't keep quite I talk the lady's ear off instead of just laying there and enjoying it!
I know that sometimes multitasking is a necessity but I wish I could or would make myself find a balance.......and have the ability to just relax....

Summer Time

Today I took lil' Miss Lillian to the pool today with our friends Sarah and Bella. We had a great time! The WB pool is free to the public on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 5-7pm which is more then enough time for an almost 2 year old. Spending quality time with my daughter is one of the best gifts.....being able to also share some mom time with a good friend and also a mom of a 2 year old girl made it even better!
Lillian was already tired when we left the pool but she found her last little bit of energy to spend playing with her cousins! So now, she is actually a sleep in her bed in her room! This is very exciting for us. Lillian used to have a perfect bedtime routine.... we would read her book kiss her goodnight, and turn on her fish tank. She would then go to sleep in her crib.......that all changed the day she learned how to climb out of her crib! Being first time parents to a now very mobile climber we freaked out! We moved her into (the cutest) toddler bed..........here was the problem she is scared to sleep in the bed...and she knows she can get out...so we did the unthinkable.....yep....bad idea....we let her sleep in our bed! Now we are facing the challenge to get her cute little butt back to sleeping in her own bed in her own room!  I attempted this a few nights ago and she slept in her own room for about an hour and then woke up with loads of energy!  At midnight I gave up.....she won....fight over!  Tonight it looks like my weapons (swimming & cousins) are helping me win the fight- she has been a sleep in her bed for over 2 hours now! Just to be on the safe side I should try and get some sleep without Lillian :)